107

WOOOO!!
107!!
Two more pounds to one of UGW

We'll see how I handle tonight... david still has dinner and i want any!!
I'M TWO POUNDS AWAY
and it figures... once I'm two pounds away hes gonna be home for the weekend- so he's gonna watch what i eat
T_T

14.9

14.9 bmi....
I would be 95 pounds...
I doubt i could get away with that. I seriously do. I mean david has to notice. 95 pounds? My ribs would poke him in the eye...
but i want it. I want 95 pounds.
I've been eating under 400 cals, today i had

popsicle- 45 cals
whole wheat crackers X2 servings -120


And when david comes home I'll have another popsicle. i'm too weak to work out.
I really should though.

Fuck you

friend-did i send you the pictures from china town? when you were getting chunkier? ^-^ so cute!
me-lol no
friend- you were getting fluffy and it was so cuuuttteeee
friend-see, u weren't that skinny then n u looked really nice


CAUSE THATS WHAT YOU SAY TO AN ANOREXIC... BRAVOOOOO

-dies-

Descent

I don’t mind being enormously fat… I come from a long line of fat people. My old man tortured himself for 40 years going from 200 to 300 [pounds] and back again. He eventually lost the weight, but he also lost his mind. 

-James Taylor  'The last fat man' died at 607 pounds

I tried to take out the fat from my thighs with my bare hands...
I have scars on my thighs now... really big long ones... I should have cut my nails....

I'm not doing well.

Something I saw

Saw thisand totally related. NOT made by me... I'm pretty sure its linked to where I found it. Anyways I love this little fat girl. I know her pain.

Fatty Fat Mc. Fatster

Once I start I can't stop.  Davids mom invited us to Pizza Hut and I was dreaded it cause I love Pizza Hut and I knew I would stuff myself. And I DID. Four slices.  Didn't even like them.  I ate more then everyone.  Blah.  Took a ton of laxatives and waiting for those to kick in.  I hate living in a town where walking is rare. The only time people walk here is if they got a DUI.

I miss New York City.

Drew more shit.  Gained more shit.  I just want to eat a shit load and puke and die.  This is shit. All of this is shit.

I have no self control. All I want is granola. I could eat granola allllllll day. blah.

Work tomorrow. Work is shit.

Another bad day

  Another bad day, 110 pounds...no contract and I sat on my ass alllllllllll day.  But I'm an artist. So I sit on my ass all day and move one part of my body.
Most of what I drew is crap but I did manage to crank this out in an hour, its Anjelica Huston. I wish she was my mother.
I know usually shes a brunette but I dunno... I had a vison where she was the sun and the sky.

Not a vision. I don't know what. But nothing as pompous sounding as 'I had a vision'

But yeaaahh.... everything I draw and am is crap.


If only I was less of it.